Sometimes you need to be so much at the same time -- a good daughter, an understanding sister, an obedient student, a supportive friend, a perfect girl friend and a lot more... and then there are times when you become a bad daughter, an irritating sister, a naughty student, a boring friend and an over possessive girl friend! But no matter what, a girl is and will always be one of the best creations of God..
Today I am going to talk about the girl nobody knows better than me.. A girl who would soon turn 18 and is expected to learn the norms of being a perfect lady! I am going to talk about me.. The soon-to-be adult who wants to still be a child. I can't believe I would no more be considered a child... The tag of an "adult" would soon be put on me.. And no more would my mistakes be considered innocent, no more can I blame someone for taking my decisions.. Freedom would come with it's own teachers to teach me new lessons! I feel like a glass of cocktail, with various emotions running a marathon inside me.. "Grow up, be serious about life!","No, no.. There's no fun in being all grown-up types!!","You have to face this world on your own now","Oh.. Stop being so philosophical!","This is not going to lead you anywhere","You're gonna be someone boring if you take it so seriously!!","You're wrong..","No! You are..."
"Hush! Calm down, dear mind", I hear myself soliloquizing! And then again, I go down the lane of confusion... I realize that it is not just one year added to your age, it is a lot more than that. It is that point when you learn to walk on your own.. Your parents no longer hold your finger everywhere you go. It is that point when you have to accept the totally ridiculous outcomes, because it is was your own decision! It is when you feel closest to your friends and parents, yet far away!
Today, I played with my old toys.. The same way I did before 10 years. My mom wanted me to discard these old possessions and make room for new things.. But I did not have the heart to give away any of my old things! I felt like a different happiness when I was playing with the toys and enjoyed it sooo much.. My parents wanted me to give it away but I was not ready to part with my rediscovered treasure! My grandmother laughed and asked my parents to let me have them for she thought I was saving the toys for my children! I was shocked for a moment.. How my sweet old lady was already seeing the dreams of my marriage and her great-grandchildren, when her grand daughter had not even finished school! She would no longer ask me which chocolate I want or which story would drive me to sweet dreams.. I was now expected to act like a mature, grown-up girl! You can't blame her, in her times girls got married at 18 and look at her grand daughter, still sits in her father's lap, plays with teddy bears, demands for a chocolate after her results, fights to see Tom & Jerry and you know what's the worst part... She can't even cook!! :P
I laugh and tell her I'm gonna marry a chef so that I don't have to cook but she turns her head away and starts mumbling indistinctively... I give her a tight hug and announce that I am always going to be childlike! I love being crazy and if no one marries me, I'll stay with her all my life and eat her head! She tries to get angry but can't help smiling and the drama ends! But the very next moment, my mind goes back to her talks and I blush at the thought of getting married.. I am sure every girl gets this feeling at some or the other time! It is not like the only aim of a girl, to get married.. No, definitely not! But it is one of the dreams she sees since early womanhood. To be married to Mr.Right and have a family of her own.. And trust me, every girl reading this would be smiling right now! :)
So, this is the confusing account of the confusing state of my confused mind at this confusing moment! I would be turning 18 in two days.. And I am so excited to be an adult and legally do stuff I was not allowed to do till now... (Mind you, I am only talking about driving and voting!) I want to be able to take my own decisions, I want to be the ripe fruit who is independent! But I don't want to leave behind my craziness, my stupid dreams, my childish talks, my toys and my teddy bears! Somehow I want to be both, a child and an adult at the same time!
Today I am going to talk about the girl nobody knows better than me.. A girl who would soon turn 18 and is expected to learn the norms of being a perfect lady! I am going to talk about me.. The soon-to-be adult who wants to still be a child. I can't believe I would no more be considered a child... The tag of an "adult" would soon be put on me.. And no more would my mistakes be considered innocent, no more can I blame someone for taking my decisions.. Freedom would come with it's own teachers to teach me new lessons! I feel like a glass of cocktail, with various emotions running a marathon inside me.. "Grow up, be serious about life!","No, no.. There's no fun in being all grown-up types!!","You have to face this world on your own now","Oh.. Stop being so philosophical!","This is not going to lead you anywhere","You're gonna be someone boring if you take it so seriously!!","You're wrong..","No! You are..."
"Hush! Calm down, dear mind", I hear myself soliloquizing! And then again, I go down the lane of confusion... I realize that it is not just one year added to your age, it is a lot more than that. It is that point when you learn to walk on your own.. Your parents no longer hold your finger everywhere you go. It is that point when you have to accept the totally ridiculous outcomes, because it is was your own decision! It is when you feel closest to your friends and parents, yet far away!
Today, I played with my old toys.. The same way I did before 10 years. My mom wanted me to discard these old possessions and make room for new things.. But I did not have the heart to give away any of my old things! I felt like a different happiness when I was playing with the toys and enjoyed it sooo much.. My parents wanted me to give it away but I was not ready to part with my rediscovered treasure! My grandmother laughed and asked my parents to let me have them for she thought I was saving the toys for my children! I was shocked for a moment.. How my sweet old lady was already seeing the dreams of my marriage and her great-grandchildren, when her grand daughter had not even finished school! She would no longer ask me which chocolate I want or which story would drive me to sweet dreams.. I was now expected to act like a mature, grown-up girl! You can't blame her, in her times girls got married at 18 and look at her grand daughter, still sits in her father's lap, plays with teddy bears, demands for a chocolate after her results, fights to see Tom & Jerry and you know what's the worst part... She can't even cook!! :P
I laugh and tell her I'm gonna marry a chef so that I don't have to cook but she turns her head away and starts mumbling indistinctively... I give her a tight hug and announce that I am always going to be childlike! I love being crazy and if no one marries me, I'll stay with her all my life and eat her head! She tries to get angry but can't help smiling and the drama ends! But the very next moment, my mind goes back to her talks and I blush at the thought of getting married.. I am sure every girl gets this feeling at some or the other time! It is not like the only aim of a girl, to get married.. No, definitely not! But it is one of the dreams she sees since early womanhood. To be married to Mr.Right and have a family of her own.. And trust me, every girl reading this would be smiling right now! :)
So, this is the confusing account of the confusing state of my confused mind at this confusing moment! I would be turning 18 in two days.. And I am so excited to be an adult and legally do stuff I was not allowed to do till now... (Mind you, I am only talking about driving and voting!) I want to be able to take my own decisions, I want to be the ripe fruit who is independent! But I don't want to leave behind my craziness, my stupid dreams, my childish talks, my toys and my teddy bears! Somehow I want to be both, a child and an adult at the same time!
But is it possible....to be a kidult?